It's been a really long time since I've posted here. Some of it was because life's been very busy. A lot of it has been because I've been afraid. I'm afraid of disappointing you, my tried and true readers. I've received so many wonderful messages over the last 3 years since starting the Body Ecology Diet that I'm an inspiration and that my blog has helped you to stay on track and commit to your health. I was afraid that if I wrote that I've been struggling lately that you would be disappointed. I haven't abandoned my beliefs about the wonders of this lifestyle at all. In fact I believe in it 100%. After my wedding 2 1/2 months ago, I had a lot of emotional baggage come up. I'm so happy in my marriage and have the best husband in the world but I no longer have the distraction of wedding planning to keep me distracted from really dealing with my issues; issues that go beyond food. You see Body Ecology taught me that this whole adventure is a mind/body experience yet I've just been focusing on the food part for 3 years. Without a wedding looming I'm not taking care of myself and have been having a very hard time with food.
Sugar has become my weakness. Not that I've been eating it everyday but At least once a week I've found a way to get in a cookie sandwich, cupcake, or muffin. I've been hiding when I do this and carrying around a lot of guilt for it. I'm not perfect, no one is. I feel that I have to portray myself as perfect to you when in reality I know that's not what you all want. You want the truth. So today I'm writing to you about my truth.
The truth is the Body Ecology Diet can make you feel isolated at times. People have a hard time understanding why you won't eat sugar, why you food combine, why you need to eat those stinky cultured vegetables and tell you they smell like garbage. Add to that a list of food allergies and it can feel like you've given up everything. On the flip side of all that you feel absolutely amazing for the first time in your life. I'll never forget how awesome it was to experience the power and energy this diet gave me. It was like a high and made me feel so calm and peaceful. When people would make fun or give me a hard time about following this path I used my wedding as the excuse. In all honesty it was my motivating factor for starting. I wanted to feel amazing, beautiful, and healthy on my wedding day. Now that's its over I'm having a hard time finding a new motivation. I'm in no means giving up. I'm ready to fight these feelings and renew my commitment to myself and my body.
Here are the areas I'm struggling most with:
1. The 80/20 principle of eating till your 80% full.
2. Craving sugar.
3. Eating late.
I need to be kinder to myself. I need to be more loving to myself. Now it's time to turn those need to's into want to's. Step by step I'll do it. It begins today. I'll be writing more here because I know it helped me tremendously in the beginning of my journey. I'll share some recipes, strategies that help me along the way and most importantly I'll share my true self. I encourage you to do the same. Thank you for the inspiration and motivation you've all given me to keep going on this journey, even with a few struggles along the way. If you need support, feel free to message me. Have a beautiful day.